Unwritten

I think at the end of the day we all fear the unknown..some more greatly than others..

Thats the thing about new relationships..the unknown..you dont know each other inside-out yet..you're not so far into it that you can tell what each other is thinking/feeling just by looking at them.."You say it best when you say nothing at all"..Okay mr keaton..how about "You say it best when you say it outloud"? yes?..I do love that song though..

Another fear is history repeating itself..thats what you do know..you do know the sour way things can be which is that giant weight holding you back.."Will not let myself cause my heart so much misery.".."I've learnt the hardway to never let it get that far".."My heart can't possibly break when it wasnt even whole to start with"..

I guess you just risk it hey?..You just..full steam ahead whatever it is you want right?..No matter what it is..just one day at a time.."Today is where ur book begins, the rest is still unwritten"..

good things come to those who wait..

So as my first semester of uni is nearly over..i cant help but to look back at how i was at the start..

I was so nervous about being in this place full of academics which is something I never considered myself as..I was worried i'd be that dumb girl in class who everyone asks what mark she got so they can feel better about theirs..but..that wasnt the case at all..I did better than expected..infact i even did better than some of the brainiacs in my classes!!..People even asked me for help on some things?!I l0ve my course..it's so interesting..and right now i literally can't wait til i go on prac..and even one day be a teacher myself!

My love life was non existent and although i never admitted it, it kind of made me feel scared..the whole uncertainity of it all..but then..i embraced it and told myself that change can be a good thing and you're only young once..i had this attitude til two fridays ago..then..i met a boy..and that changed my perspective..that boy is now my boyfriend and i havent stopped smiling since two fridays ago..

I'm back on team love..

Suprises

Life is full of them hey..

I just did one of those time wasting myspace bulletins..I went to do one friday but i didnt post it coz it was pretty boring..and it was questions like do you see yourself in a relationship in six months and i put something like no way SINGLE LADIES!!

Then..tonight i did a quiz and guess what..the answer was not so certain..all the difference a wkn makes!!

But at the same time..one my closest friends is probably in the same boat but with it around the wrong way..no one saw that coming..it breaks my heart to see things like that..im still team love though..

Well single ladies or not..no matter what happens i've learnt i'll always have my friends! Even when going through heartbreak they can still be happy and excited for you..