Bye Bye Complicated Hello Care Free

Have you ever wondered what ppl's first impression of you is? Are you pretty? Are you chubby/'built bigger', cute, funny, bitchy, negative, beautiful, cranky or my favourite word this week 'uptight'.

Pretty predictable what im going to say next right? Someones first impression of me was uptight..and a friend of mine who's known me for a while also described me as uptight..At first i was like are you kidding? The girl who will openly say words like 'roasting' and is starting to be labelled the new 'hoe' be uptight..clearly you have the wrong person..

Then as the night went on i realised how right they were..I am uptight..I am so in my ways of whats right and whats wrong I could be missing out on things here? I dont really live in the moment..and dont do what i really want to do..i think too much about the consequences and look at the future rather then the present..something happened that was a once in a moment thing and i didnt do what i wanted to because of what may happen later on..I didnt do what i wanted to do because i may regret it..which sucks..now i regret not doing it..Big example of uptight..

Its boring..it sucks..this complication i have here..im just some kind of nerd in my own life..who doesnt speed..doesnt smoke..doesnt do anything im scared of..saves her money..doesnt argue with her parents..the most fun i have sometimes is when im drunk..because i dont think i just do..and i may do embarrassing things but i have so much fun doing it!

So today ive decided..no more of this shit..its time to start doing things that scare me..and do everything and regret it later..im too young to be old..im too young to think about all the consequences..im too young to say no..

I will be going on a cruise in 12 days..a perfect place for what i need right now..i have a best friend who will remind me of this promise to myself..who when i say im tired or whatever..will say sleep when your dead and your only young once..

So here's to..all the mistakes i may make but all the fun i'll have doing it!