Coward

You think I dont know..but I do..

Its not that actual event or possible event..its the lying..its the you not telling me when i gave you 10,000 chances to..

I dont believe you didnt tell me because it was better for me not knowing..i think its because you didnt have the guts to..i think its because you didnt want to come to terms with that something that happened i couldnt be blamed for..

True. You didnt want to upset me..you didnt want to watch tears fall from face..you didnt want me to get so angry i'd say something i'd regret..you didnt want me to self doubt myself because "I'll always love you".."its not you its me"..

B U L L S H I T..i believe u didnt want to see all of the above but not for my sake..for your own..you didnt want to watch me fall apart because seeing me upset kills you..

Dont get me wrong here..i am moving on..and believe I am better off with my life now..i just think you owed me honesty..I even asked u after we broke up.."No there's no one else"..LIAR!..im not going to have a confrontation with you about this..im not going to send u an abusive text message or tell all your friends stories about you or even give you some kind of silent treatment if i ever saw you again..

And for anyone reading going why dont u talk to him about it? Because i did..a lot..god..i was so stupid..I knew it i knew it deep down..i knew as soon as i saw a photo when you got back i just knew it..and i chose to ignore it..and why should i give you a chance for a pathetic explanation? you werent brave enough in the first place and i dont have time for cowards..

I do understand that you cant control your feelings..you cant control who you fall for and moving on is apart of it..you just could of had some balls and told me the truth..rather than telling your mates instead..god im a friends sister? No shit i was going to find out..

yes i am angry..but at the same time..im happy..im happy that this helps me realise how i deserve better..how hot and cold you were and how in the long distance future i need someone who loves me a little more and wants me for me and doesnt make me feel guilty about the person i am..

I do believe in karma and one day you will get yours :)