Feeling

Today is the day I really thought about whats happened and I really understood..

Things hadn't been okay for ages..you stopped trying..i started to fall out of love and it scared me because i knew how much fun we'd had in the passed..so i avoided it..i avoiding thinking about it because i knew u going away was going to be a break for us and then we could really work out if this relationship is going the same way it was a year ago..

You came back and I tried so hard for things to go back to what it was a year ago..Even before u left i tried to make things perfect..I tried so hard to make u happy that I put ur happiness before my own..

u'd think it'd be a huge relief for me to admit that now?..a huge relief i dont have to worry about u anymore..i felt a bit of that today..but now im left wondering how come you couldnt love someone who devoted themself to you? I know this is wrong and love isnt a one way street..but if i couldnt make this relationship work how can I in the future?

Deep down i know ur not the one for me..deep down i know this relationship ended before u left..deep down i know that this shouldnt be my fault..but i feel like it is..