Phases

Phase one - Denial : (psychiatry) a defense mechanism that denies painful thoughts
Phase two - Anger : a strong emotion; a feeling that is oriented toward some real or supposed grievance
Phase three - blame: an accusation that you are responsible for some lapse or misdeed
Phase four - retail therpay : is shopping with the primary purpose of improving the buyer's mood or disposition. (1) Often seen in people during periods of depression or transition, it is normally a short-lived habit. Items purchased during periods of retail therapy are sometimes referred to as "comfort buys."

So today im up to phase four..i bought some crap i probably dont need but the feeling of new stuff makes me feel better somehow..i think that if i surround myself with new stuff i'll somehow have a new environment and i'll have a new perspective..

This is probably a bad thing to say..but im in the funner part of the break up..shopping for random things..I'd like to think that the next phase is excessive partying? That sounds a bit more fun..

Today was the first day i didnt think about us..i didnt think of missing you..i didnt think of blaming myself i didnt even think of blaming you..i thought about us being friends and that was it..Songs came on that were used to remind me of u or us or whatever and i didnt get upset..maybe i can start smiling about the good times and not get upset that there may not be anymore..fingers crossed all days will be the same..

So who wants to be my midnight kiss??